2 Days, 23 Hours and Counting

Its early in the morning, this is the second to last time I'll sleep in my bed until November. I've been up watching movies and making bracelets. Today's (yesterday, but since I haven't slept yet it's today) been, kinda a stressful day. Nothing seemed to go the way I planned it too. Things I expected to complete had to be postponed to tomorrow, things that should have been done last week are still left unfinished simply because its out of my control. I have no motivation to get up and start packing, so it was incredibly easy to go off and help my mom with something, or practice volleyball with my sister, or go play the piano. I'm really stressing over this college stuff.

I'm so ready to move out and get on my own its suffocating! But all the same, I don't feel ready. I look around me and see other kids who are my age and younger, but they all seem like the older college students I looked up to as a 10yr old. I look in the mirror and don't see an almost 20 year old girl, I still see the selfconcious girl in 7th grade who was terrified of speaking up in a new place.

I can be a little apprehensive about the future, I'd be crazy not to be! I think what I'm trying to say can be summed up in a scene from C.S. Lewis' "Prince Caspian". Aslan is telling Caspian that he is a king of Narnia and Caspian tells him that he does not think that he is ready for it. Aslan calms his fears by saying "it is for that very reason, that I know you are".

48 hours from right now, I'll be sleeping (hopefully) somewhere in a hotel waiting for the sun to rise and a new adventure to begin. About 7 1/2 hours later, I'll be driving in the front gate and the adventure will begin. Tomorrow I'm going to try and take my own advice and just let things happen. I'm not going to stress about packing or getting things done, just do it and do it all with a smile on my face!

Here's to all you college students out there. Whether you're going back to college, whether you're starting college, hey this even goes for you high school kids! Life's an adventure. Don't be afraid to step out and enjoy it.