How many times has something happened that you never saw coming? Something seemed fine but to late you realized that its not, its completely screwed up?
That happened to me this last week. There was a situation that I knew wasn't perfect but I thought it was beginning to work itself out. Things were going fine, as well as they could be expected with how the situation worked. After spending all summer wondering if fixing this situation was worth it, I was lead to believe it was. God kept throwing Bible verses at me, lessons, reminders. I decided to not give up and keep moving on. I figured things would get easier, and they started too!
But then everything came crashing down in a way that I never would have expected. Suddenly, I felt like nothing I had done mattered because the very thing that I was fighting to keep fell apart, instigated by the most unlikely source I imagined.
On the outside, everything was great. But on the inside there were fights going on that I didn't even know or could ever understand. Things were not as they appeared to be, and I'm left now with broken pieces that I don't think will ever be able to be put back together, and now the question is do I want them put back together? If the chance comes to try and put things to right, do I want it?
Today is kinda depressing I know.
On the bright side school is going fairly well and I finally got my books! I actually feel like I'm in school since I can carry around more than just notebooks with paper in them. I'll try to keep updating this more often with more tidbits from around campus!
Laters!
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